Gospel music singer and former member of the Joyous Celebration band, Bukiwe Twani has opened up about her struggle with depression and two instances when she made an attempt to end her life.
The star who is ready to record another song next month revealed in a recent interview that she first attempted suicide when she finished from secondary school. After that, she had to fight to stay alive as the thoughts were always coming.
According to her: “I thought ‘this can’t be my life’. I just wanted the pain to go away. I waited until everyone had left the house and then took pills. I took pills and waited to die. I remember my family coming home, seeing me suffering and my mother crying for me. Everything was fuzzy and I couldn’t see anything clearly. I just felt my mother holding me and praying; ‘Please, God. Not my child. Not now.'”
The second time she had the urge to take her life was after her first album had been released but there were no shows and she felt drained and took pills to try to end it all.
“There was no shows. I saw people being booked and knew it should have been me but it wasn’t me. I started to feel like something was wrong with me and maybe I should just go live on the streets because maybe music wasn’t for me.”
She struggled through it though and had to seek help and take a much needed break from music and now that she is better, she is back on the scene and ready to release a new song, hoping it will help her resume the climb that she paused when she took that break.